In gear

I've been working out everyday again. And I have written down a few reminders to keep myself on track. Only eat lean means... chicken, turkey, fish. Never ever eat anything fried. Only eat whole wheat bread and pasta products. No! cream sauces. No alcohol. Exercise everyday. Try not to snack.. chew gum instead. And in general, focus on my goal... not what I am feeling right now. I think that I let immediate gratification outweigh long term gratification influence my choices too often. I need to quit that and focus on my goal.

I've been working really really hard on class assignments. I have soooo much to do. Also, I am looking for a job, career, graduate program... something that will be a good choice for me. Currently, I have no clue what I am going to do! It's scary. Any advice on this is more than welcome. I'm lost :(

Burnt out... Plus Spring break

So, the week before spring break my work load at school seemed to multiply. I was swamped and I didn't have time to work out. Then came spring break. And I started eating really bad and again, didn't have much time to work out. So I did really bad... definitely not on a diet. So today I'm starting back up again. I went for a walk/run that was 3.2 miles. And then I had cheerios. I'm about to shower and get ready for classes... And I have homework that will keep me busy allllll day! I am having a really hard time balancing my school work.. which is causing me to be exhausted, and my willpower to eat healthy and work out. I wish I had a workout partner to keep me on track. Anyways, I applied at Gold's Gym in Amarillo a couple of days ago. I'm hoping to get a job there when I move back to Canyon in May. I did a great Body Pump workout at Westside Tennis Club in Houston over spring break and I loved it. Hopefully I get the job at Gold's Gym and I will be able to participate in their workout classes. I would love that! Otherwise, I will have to get a job that I make enough money I can pay for a gym membership! Either way I wanna do it. It's just hard to think of getting a gym membership while I'm in Austin because I will only be here for 45 more days... And I don't have money to start paying for that right now. Blah. I wish it was free! lol... yeah right! Alright, well it's time to get ready for my busy busy day. Someone... HELP ME STAY MOTIVATED :D K thanks

"Make the decision, then do something - no matter how small - toward accomplishing what you want."

I like this quote a lot... "Make the decision, then do something - no matter how small - toward accomplishing what you want." ... No matter how small. I really feel like it is kind of liberating. The small things count. You don't always have to do cardio for 2 hours. I don't have to think of what I'm eating all the time. Just consciously make small choices throughout the day to bring me further towards accomplishing what I want. Excellent. I had a completely awful day. My hormones are going wild. I got in fights with John... and we are now on a break. I have come to realize that I am sabotaging my life. I have no self confidence, and I am afraid of failure. All of these combined equals a not healthy lifestyle. I am in desperate need of a out look on life make over. It's time for me to take control of myself, of my actions, of my attitude. Honestly, I'm about to graduate from college. I am about to start being an adult. I have to start acting like it. The hardest thing for me is believing in myself. I just have to put my big girl panties on and deal with it! Wish me luck :)